RIP MJ.

I know I stopped being a fan of him a long time ago.. but still, he had an ifluence on me, and he definitely was one of the greatest musicians ever.

11th grade is officially over. time goes by so fast and i'm not sure if I actually understand what it means. I mean, I have only one year left before I'll go to do military service, one of my favorite teachers is no longer going to teach us, a friend of mine is leaving school etc. etc..
It's kind of exciting but at the same time frightening.

I think that my grades this year weren't my best, but still i'm proud of what I achieved.
My last bagrut (out of 9) is in Math, my biggest issue, on July 14th.
I really hope that my abilities will be expressed in the exam, because it's really important to me, and I don't think that I could handle a failure.

You can say that the vacation is right in front of me, which means that I can start having fun. :) I have a job interview in Sbarro on Sunday. (so excited!). I'll do my best to make this vacation memorable. ♥♥

With each delegation meeting I just can't wait to get to Poland. It just seems closer than ever!


me and my guuuurrll, Esther. <33


that's all for now.. live, laugh and watch Smallville. ;)♥

//xoxo danielle

There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

// No Boundaries by Kara DioGuardi




- American Idol is over. I was a part of team Lambert of course. It's kind of disappointing that Adam didn't win, but Kris is definitely a good singer and he deserves to get this title. :)
Every week I enjoyed the performances and hoped that my 3 favorite contestants will be safe. Those were Adam, Kris and Allison. <3
Can't wait to hear their new songs and projects, because they're so talented and each one brings something unique, which I like. :)


- We've started talking about the journey to Poland. I think I might need a little time before I'll be able to express my feelings and thoughts.
The flight's date is August 26th. 25th
I'm afraid of what I'm about to see, hear, feel.. and as a girl who's family isn't related to the Holocaust personally, i'm worried that I won't feel connected enough. but I believe that with the help of my music♥, photography, writing, my friends and teacher, I'll feel better..


Meanwhile there's Shavu'ot (Jewish holiday) next week, I have 6 more bagruyot left, I'm looking for a job, and then 2 months of freedom. omg i can't believe i'm about to finish 11th grade.


//danielle

credit for the icons in the post goes to
whatever_stuff& nineteen07

Well today is Memorial day for Israel's fallen. During the year I don't pay that much attention to it, don't know why.. I guess it's because in Israel we are "used" to have wars and lose soldiers..
but today, I realized how serious this is.
There are more than 22,000 fallen, it's shocking. Soldiers who were only 18, 19, 20 years old when they died.. they were so young, so innocent.
I realized that it can happen to any of us, on the most unexpected time..
Until these days I didn't feel that connected to this day, but it's different now. I am so close to recruit to IDF (צה"ל).
I've seen those films and TV programs about families who have lost their beloveds and it just made me cry. Those brave young men die so I could live in this country. This day gives me the opportunity to tell them: Thank you for saving me. May God avenge you.




Tonight we'll be celebrating Israel's 61st birthday. :-)
My friends and I will probably go to see concerts.. hopefully it will be fine and I'll enjoy it.

Oh.. and I wanted to share this fun thing I found.
List of ten things that only Israeli people can do :) [it's in Hebrew]

.1
יקרא לחבר הכי טוב שלו בן זונה, אבל למישהו שהוא לא מכיר אחי.
.2
יסע לחו"ל ויחפש דוכן פלאפל.
.3
יראה בפעם האלף ביום העצמאות את אסקימו לימון וצ'ארלי וחצי.
ידקלם בעל פה קטעים מסרטי בורקס +
.4
יקנה טובלרון בדיוטי פרי רק כדי להרגיש שהוא היה בחו"ל, למרות שהוא יכול לקנות כזה בסופר.
.5
ידבר באמצע אוטובוס מלא בקולי קולות על דמי המזונות החודשיים עם הבעל/אישה לשעבר.
.6
יתערב בשיחות של ישראלים אחרים ברחוב בלי להכיר אותם בכלל או לדעת את הרקע לשיחה.
.7
יספר איך היה האוכל בתשובה לשאלה איך הייתה החתונה.
.8
יתלונן על החום במרכז הארץ ויסע לנוח באילת.
.9
(יערבב במבה עם שוקולד. (ובייגלה כמו חברה שלי
.10
יהיה לו לפעמים כואב לאהוב את המדינה, אבל אף פעם לא יפסיק לאהוב אותה.


//danielle.


(credit for the icons goes to pradadevil)

Have you ever searched a song for so long? did you have this feeling, that you won't relax until you find it?
You just want to listen to it, to feel it.. and this desire gives you the power to look for it. Then, when you'll find it, you'd be satisfied.

Have you ever had the lyrics on your tongue, but when you tried to explain it to other people they didn't understand? you become speechless.
you can sing it to yourself, but no one else would understand.. it's yours only.
You feel connected to the words.. you learn from them, become smarter, optimistic.

You listen to those songs everywhere.. in the bus, in movies, in a club, on TV.. and you know, when you find the song, when you listen to it over and over again, that it's not about the song, it's about you finding your way of life



Passover is over.. I had a nice vacation.
On Sunday I went to the north.. I went to this ancient place called "Beit She'arim" :)
The north has some beautiful views.. <3


On Monday I studyed math with my friend, then I went to the beach with my girls♥ and after that we were in Tel Aviv until it was dark. :)





From next Sunday, I won't be able to breath.. I have lots of tests and bagruyut to do.. it won't be easy but I'll do my best to have good grades and feel satisfied.





//danielle.

I was inspired to make a sexy/beautiful post. :)

What's sexy to me?

- Sexy is playing the guitar
- Sexy is havnig a good perfume
- Sexy is IDF uniforms (& soldiers.)
- Sexy is having intelligence
- Sexy is people like Adam Lambert, Emile Hirsch, Matt Damon, Matthew Rhys etc.
- Sexy is wearing tailored clothes/geek chic
- Sexy is standing for what you believe in
- Sexy is knowing how to dance (mostly Hip-Hop)
- Sexy is bristles (not too much)
- Sexy is a good sense of humor
- Sexy is quoting from books/movies

What's beautiful to me?

- Beautiful is knowing how to sing (having a good voice)
- Beautiful is smiling
- Beautiful is kissing the one you love
- Beautiful is picnic at sunset
- Beautiful is showing emotions
- Beautiful is jewelry (on both men & women.. again, not too much though.. something simple but yet pretty and in a good quality)

I'll quote this person who said that sexyness has limits and beauty doesn't. A person can be so sexy that it will make me recoil.
It's important to keep it בגבול הטעם הטוב.


& Just wanted to recommend a few songs.. some are new, some are not.



♪ Eddie Vedder - Society
♪ Eddie Vedder - Rise
♪ Eddie Vedder - Long Nights
♪ Bedlight For Blue Eyes - Jumper
♪ Adam Lambert - Tracks of my Tears
♪ Keri Hilson - Turnin Me On (Feat. Lil Wayne)
♪ Seal - Love's Divine


PS. - Does anyone have a cure for jealousy?

Well I've seen this movie last night, and it made me speechless.



Some backgroud - It's about this guy, Christopher McCandless. After graduating in 1990 from Emory University, McCandless ceased communicating with his family, gave away his savings of $24,000 to Oxfam and began traveling, later abandoning his car and burning all the money in his wallet.
In April 1992 he made it to Alaska with only 10 pounds of rice, a .22 caliber rifle, a camera, several boxes of rifle rounds, and a small selection of reading material — including a field guide to the region's edible plants.
He died sometime in August (from eating a poisoned plant which he thought was eatable), and his body was found in early September by a group of moose hunters.

The movie describes his journey.
It was such a powerful movie. First of all, the places and views in the movie are breathtaking -









I was amazed by them during the whole film.
It made me think about those beautiful places over the world that I wish I could see with my own eyes.
Chris wanted to have the adventure of his life.. live with no pressure or commitments. He had a lot of courage. It would be such a good feeling to leave the routine and go to those amazing places such as Alaska, the Bahamas and the Amazons..
But, although Chris had a good time in his journey, he was lonely.. I think it made him crazy. A person can't be alone for such a long time and stay sane.
Eventually when he ate this plant, no one could help him, he was in one of the most beautiful places in the world, alone, dying.





I honestly think it's true. He thought so too, but it was too late.


I don't know how to explain this actually, but a lot of emotions came into my mind while I was watching this film. On one hand, I was kinda jealous of him, that he had this courage to leave everything and visit new places, make his dream come true. On the other hand I don't think I could do this by myself, because I need company.. I'd go crazy if I had to be alone for 2 years.


The soundtrack is also lovely. ♥
The songs are a mix of beautiful melodies and honest words. They match to the storyline so perfectly.


I think i'm going to watch it again sometime. It was very unique. ♥
It teaches you about life.. that you need to be open-minded, that there are good people in this world who are willing to help you, that although things might not always end up on the right way, you've got to take the risk, and live the dream.



BY THE WAY
(my 'Brothers and Sisters' graphics post is here.)


//xoxo danielle.

I'm having a hard time.
I work, it's almost Passover, I hang out with my friends.. but still, there's math. There's always math.

My math teacher told my home room teacher that I should consider moving to 4 points. (I do 5)
It made me nervous, confused, sad all at the same time.
I don't know.. my grades aren't perfect but I try so hard. Yeah, I've missed a few lessons but it wasn't my fault. I guess it doesn't matter, because the only thing that rules is the grade.

There's this test on Thursday which i'm going to do.. I have to get 75+. I have to show that teacher that I can succeed - with or without her. I know I can do 5 points, but, that teacher makes me feel like a looser over and over again. Gosh I have to keep holding on.. I can't let her get me down. It's soo hard though.


B I O T O P E

We already had 2 biotopes. It's in this gorgeous place.. a green field.. dreamy
it's kinda fun.. we checked the temperature and the moistness, we saw a lot of flowers, we went to a butterfly hunting, and it was very nice :)

here's a picture of the field. <3




I'll be adding more pics soon, hopefully. :)



I hope to solve this big math mess, (gosh I haven't told my parents yet) because I'm optimistic.. most of the time.






//xoxo danielle.

So.. Purim is over. This year I had a nice idea for the costume.. although a few people thought I was an Indian, I thought it looked cute. :)

 

One of my friends dressed up as Audrey Hepburn, the woman I wanted to be in the begining.. but she looked so nice with all of the accessories. :)




Each day I keep thinking that 'Brothers and Sisters' is one of the best TV shows ever. I mean, the cast is so talented and the script is very good.. I kinda have this feeling, like i'm a part of that family, it's hard to explain it in words.. they give you this good feeling since the actors are so authentic.
I loved it since the first episode I saw. ♥
I know people might think I'm obsessed, but all I can say is that I recognize a good TV Show/Book/Film when I see it.
Oh and Matthew and Luke are so adorable. ♥♥


March is going to be a busy month.. I have lots of things to do.

• March 4th - Festipelech
• March 9-11th - Purim
• March 17th - The 11th Grade production
• March 18th - Test in Arabic
• March 19th - Test in Mishna
• March 19th - My cousin's recruitment party
• March 20th - Working day. ♥
• March 21st - Brit Milah
• March 23rd - Biotope
• March 24th - Test in Biology
• March 25-26th - Gadna ♥♥
• March 30th - Biotope #2

I guess those happy occasions will make me feel happy. :) I'm in a 'down' right now.. I'm not sure why, I get this feeling sometimes.. like I'm all alone. it's probably just me but I hate when it when I feel it.. it makes me weak. I gotta cheer up.


//xoxo danielle

I feel sick. My fever goes up and down and it's killing me.
It feels so terrible not being able to do random and easy stuff that I do every day.. like talking, laughing, walking. when I do those things I feel bad.. I get this ugly cough and it hurts..

This week I was supposed to buy accessories for my costume, but I can't move without feeling the need to throw up.. and also these days are so cold and full of rain. how lovely. :)

I honestly don't know when'll I go to buy them.. the big day is on next Sunday. \:


March 5th

Okay, I have something in my tonsils.. I need to take pen-rafa for 6 days. with the help of God I'll survive. hehe :)




Today a soldier from the intelligence corps came to our class to talk about..... Arabic. :)
I thought of making good impression on him.. and I think it worked, but, I said a few things that I really regret.. it's those little things like "your writing is unreadable" or "a bad dancer says that the stage is crooked" (I compared it to him) or "you didn't write this sign correctly". I don't think before I say those things.. and yeah it was funny and I'm not the only person who said those kind of things, but, I feel dumb, because I really respected that soldier, he was very nice and he laughed with us.. I just wish I wouldn't have said those 'mean' things to him..
So.. wherever he is now, I hope that he knows that and.. I hope there'll be another class with him. :)

EDIT: Umm you know what? no, that soldier was acting very snobish, so he deserves it. :)




// xoxo danielle

Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall
for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all
of what we used to be

// The Last Goodnight - Pictures of You


It's Thursday again, posting time! :P

1) Purim is about 2 weeks away, and I'm going to be a stylish woman from the 20s

hopefully it'll look like this:


(not that naughty though hehe)

I want it to be pretty ♥ it's actually the first year (since high-school started) that I have a really good costume. :)

Meanwhile I have -
• A test in Math (omg)
• A test in Gemara
• A test in History
• The festipelech (some kind of a cute song contest)

2) I can't believe Gilad Shalit is almost 980 days in captivity. It's just
so sad. This week thare's been a lot of conversations about his freeing, and Israel decided No Gilad - means that the passageways stay closed.
I really hope that he'll be back soon.. he became like a son, a brother, a friend to all of us in Israel - he's innocent and we must have him back.
I always have him in my prayers.





The songs that made my week -

All I Ever Wanted // Basshunter

Pictures Of You // The Last Goodnight

Please Don't Stop The Rain // James Morrison

Beauty And The Beast // Celine Dion



// xoxo danielle

and awake my dreams,
let it wash away my sanity
cause I wanna feel the thunder
I want to scream
let the rain fall down -
I'm coming clean

// Hilary Duff - Come Clean


this week made me think.. about school, about life, about me


On Thursday, we got our diplomas (for the first half of school).
Mine was actually good, I was expecting for something less good.. it feels nice. :)
On Math I got 70. bad, really bad.. but my teacher told me something, that made me think:
"Your math teacher appreciates you. If she thought that you can't do 5 points she'd say it. But she believes and knows that you can"

I try so hard to succeed on Math.. but my grades don't show it. Maybe now it'll work out for me because the pressure I had with the 005 bagrut exam is over.. (although we've recently started learning something really hard)
I'll have faith in my self, and with my hard work I'll reap the results. :)


לעולם אל תתייחס אל לימודיך כאל חובה"
אלא כאל הזמנות מעוררת קנאה ללמוד,
לדעת את השפעתו המשחררת של היופי בתחום הרוח,
"לשם אושרך שלך ולתועלת הקהילה שבתוכה תעבוד

.אלברט איינשטיין //

My biotope project was about to begin on Wednesday, but it was cancelled because one of the guides broke her leg. On one hand, I was disappointed because I wanted to begin this project, see the beautiful nature in the north. On the other hand, I was relieved.. because I'm afraid to start, I don't know who it'll be.. and let's not forget that i'm not the best student in Biology yet. This project is very important to me, it takes part in my final grade on Biology and it has to be great!
I guess I'll have to face it, and give my best when the moment arrives.

 

I have 3 free days from school now. :)
I don't know what I'll do yet, but I wanna have fun.. with my friends maybe. I haven't seen any change recently in their attitude, but I honestly don't know what else to do. Maybe it's just my feeling (like one of my friends said), I don't know..



i want to be there.


// xoxo danielle.

okay, a new week is about to begin, a very anxious one.
I wanted to share a few things that I've done over the past week...

1) I went to a birthday party of 2 of my friends on Thursday. I really needed this freedom...
I told myself that I'm going to have fun, and so it was. :)

this is what I wore -




♥ A tunic, from ZARA
♥ Pale gray skinny jeans
♥ Peep Toe shoes from ALDO
♥ Black cardigan

It was in this hidden place, behind the industrial area.
but inside it was lovely.. a big place, a lot of green sofas, big amplifiers, colorful lights..

although about 2:00 a.m. a few guys fought.. it was very ugly so they had to close down the place until the police came.
But I can't say I didn't have fun.. I was with my friends, I danced.. I felt good. :)


2) I finished reading the book 'Tell No One' by Harlan Coben.




From Wikipedia: The story is about Dr. David Beck, who lost his wife in a mysterious attack eight years ago. And every day for the past eight years, he has relived the horror of what happened. The gleaming lake. The pale moonlight. The piercing screams. The night his wife was taken. The last night he saw her alive.

Everyone tells him it's time to move on, to forget the past once and for all. But for David Beck, there can be no closure. A message has appeared on his computer, a phrase only he and his dead wife know. Suddenly Beck is taunted with the impossible--that somewhere, somehow, his wife is alive...and he's been warned to tell no one.


It's a very powerful book, I love Harlans' style. It's already the second book of him that I read (the first one was 'Drop Shot'). He's such a good writer. ♥
They are both recommended. :)


3) I started taking private lessons in Biology, so I could catch up with the rest of the class (I left physics). The first lesson was kinda good but I really hope that I'll remember everything.. I have a test on February 3rd and I need to get 75+, I'm faithful...


4) Well actually this is something that didn't happen - I haven't watched 'Brothers & Sisters' for almost 3 weeks now.. I don't have time! I hope I'll have time in Thursday.. :)

5) I got addicted to the song 'You And I Both' // Jason Mraz.


I guess that's all for now..
have a lovely week


//Danielle
<3

just a few things I loved, from polyvore. :)





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Today is יום הקדיש הכללי (The General Kaddish day).
In this special day we say Kaddish (sanctification prayer) in memory of all of the holocaust victims that their burial places are unknown.

That made me think about all of those people who died just because they were Jewish..
they were young, ambitious, with dreams and loves and hobbies.. and their dreams were destroyed in just one moment.

We don't know their names, we don't know who they were, we just know that they were a part from the 6,000,000 murdered Jews. The only thing that testifies their existence is a piece of paper in Yad Vashem. No photographs, no relatives.. just a paper that someone who once saw them wrote.

And I thought, that it must be horrible to die like that.. because you want to leave a mark in this world after you die, and they have nothing.. nobody remembers them.. they're a part of a number, just a number,..
I want to be remembered, I want people to remember my personality, I want to make my dreams come true.. and the murdered ones can't, couldn't.

So that's what we did in school - we wrote a lot of names of murdered ones which their burial places are unknown on a paper shaped like a flower, and we hang it on a wall. The wall had a few words on it:

"לכל איש יש שם"
(Every Person Has A Name)


we remembered them, by their names.



___________________________________________________



may all of our soldiers come back home safe and sound from Gaza.

Happy new year. :)
Although I already celebrated the new year on א' תשרי this date also represents the start of something new.

so, my expectations from this year are -

to have Gilad Shalit back home safe and sound
to finish this war in my country, and that no more innocent people will get killed
that Israel will win the Oscar, that the Kinneret will get full, that all of our kidnapped soldiers will get back home,
that more good TV shows will be created, that our next prime minister will get the best decisions

for me

to have good grades on school, to have a satisfing grade on the physics & math bagrut.
to hang out with my friends (those who really like me for being me), to have joyful moments, to have a boyfriend :)
to meet new people, that I'll get in sahpe, to be a good daughter
to go to Poland.. to have good relationships with my family & friends, to get a good work and earn lots of money. then keep some of it and in the rest go shopping. <3 :)
travel to new places, learn new things, watch some good movies,
to do at least one thing that I love every month

and just try to enjoy my life..






have a lovely day,
//Danielle

Happy Passover. :)


Muah

I am a mountain.
I am a tall tree.
Oh I am a swif wind sweeping the country.
I am river down in the valley.
Oh I am a vision, I can see clearly.
If any one asks you who I am just stand up tall look them in the face and say..

Im that star up in the sky
Im that moutain deep up high.
Hey you made it
Im the worlds greatest*m
Im that little bit of hope in my backs against the rope I can feel it, mm
Im the worlds greatest.

I am a giant.
I am a egale.
Oh I am a lion down in the jungle
I am a marching band
I am the people
I am heavin head
I am a hero
If any one asks you who I am just stand up tall look them in the face and say..

Im that star up in the sky
Im that moutain deep up high.
Hey you made it
Im the worlds greatest
Im that little bit of hope in my backs against the rope I can feel it.
Im the worlds greatest.

Im that star up in the sky
Im that moutain deep up high.
Hey you made it
Im the worlds greatest
Im that little bit of hope in my backs against the rope I can feel it.
Im the worlds greatest.

Ohh
Im that star up in the sky
Im that moutain deep up high.
Hey you made it
Im the worlds greatest
Im that little bit of hope in my backs against the rope I can feel it.
Im the worlds greatest.

Im that star up in the sky
Im that moutain deep up high.
Hey you made it
Im the worlds greatest
Im that little bit of hope in my backs against the rope I can feel it.
Im the worlds greatest.


I wish I could feel like this.